Broken Mirrors
It seems the unhappier you get, the higher the expectations for the life that surrounds you get. As if anything outside of yourself should lift your mood, when really you're the one responsible for it.
The last couple of days have been completely self-indulgent.
Christmas better mean family, good food, Bailey's and dieter's downfall, and if anything is amiss, then it's spoiled, right? Well that was my truth and thank god my bro had Baileys and that my sister brought some dieter's downfall (the absolute most decadent and fattening dessert ever) because otherwise I would have been dissatisfied with the holiday.
It's December 27th now, and time to get things going in preparation for the new year. I spent a few hours reading a great book called Spirit Junkie by Gabrielle Bernstein. You should read it.
It allowed me to reflect about the year I've had. Off the top of my head, 2013 wasn't the best of years for me but that was my superficial assumption. With social media as an aid, I looked back at some posts and pictures and it turns out I did a lot in 2013. Tried stand-up for the first time, officiated my best friend's wedding, filmed a movie in the summer... pretty awesome stuff!
So why the bad taste in my mouth?
I had a pretty telling dream last night, about getting pooped on by a bird. In my dream, as it has been in my life experience, I thought it meant good luck, but researching the unpleasant feelings I had when I woke up, I discovered it could mean having unmet goals.
Who doesn't right?
But it was the correct dream I needed to gain more insight into myself as I read Spirit Junkie. I found myself nodding my head and agreeing out loud to the words on the page and laughing to myself at how much I related and understood this to be truth.
What spoke to me most was her chapter on special relationships. How every relationship is a lesson, something I know fundamentally but tend to ignore in person.
And that's the lesson for me in 2013. How getting entwined with another human being, whether professional, personal or romantic, has taught me a great deal about myself. Every person is a mirror reflection of you, like it or not, but it's about catching the reflection that's meant to teach you something about yourself. Not the wink, the nice hairstyle or even the tattoos, but the inner person that is challenging you in some respect. What is it this person has to offer you? Are you able to celebrate your true self or do you find yourself stuck on feelings for this person, and why? What's the message? Are you open enough to receive it?
I can tell you from personal experience that being open and in tune isn't easy, because it means you have to face some mess in your life you'd rather keep quiet, but maybe it's time to bring it to the surface and deal?
I literally spent the year dealing with this. And while it was a struggle for a long time, it's taught me so much about what areas of my being that needed healing. And it's healed, and I look forward to meeting the people that will mirror the light I feel deep down, and that's what's it all about.
MMMMMmmmmmm, life.
Ray Lamontagne,
Katie
The last couple of days have been completely self-indulgent.
Christmas better mean family, good food, Bailey's and dieter's downfall, and if anything is amiss, then it's spoiled, right? Well that was my truth and thank god my bro had Baileys and that my sister brought some dieter's downfall (the absolute most decadent and fattening dessert ever) because otherwise I would have been dissatisfied with the holiday.
It's December 27th now, and time to get things going in preparation for the new year. I spent a few hours reading a great book called Spirit Junkie by Gabrielle Bernstein. You should read it.
It allowed me to reflect about the year I've had. Off the top of my head, 2013 wasn't the best of years for me but that was my superficial assumption. With social media as an aid, I looked back at some posts and pictures and it turns out I did a lot in 2013. Tried stand-up for the first time, officiated my best friend's wedding, filmed a movie in the summer... pretty awesome stuff!
So why the bad taste in my mouth?
I had a pretty telling dream last night, about getting pooped on by a bird. In my dream, as it has been in my life experience, I thought it meant good luck, but researching the unpleasant feelings I had when I woke up, I discovered it could mean having unmet goals.
Who doesn't right?
But it was the correct dream I needed to gain more insight into myself as I read Spirit Junkie. I found myself nodding my head and agreeing out loud to the words on the page and laughing to myself at how much I related and understood this to be truth.
What spoke to me most was her chapter on special relationships. How every relationship is a lesson, something I know fundamentally but tend to ignore in person.
And that's the lesson for me in 2013. How getting entwined with another human being, whether professional, personal or romantic, has taught me a great deal about myself. Every person is a mirror reflection of you, like it or not, but it's about catching the reflection that's meant to teach you something about yourself. Not the wink, the nice hairstyle or even the tattoos, but the inner person that is challenging you in some respect. What is it this person has to offer you? Are you able to celebrate your true self or do you find yourself stuck on feelings for this person, and why? What's the message? Are you open enough to receive it?
I can tell you from personal experience that being open and in tune isn't easy, because it means you have to face some mess in your life you'd rather keep quiet, but maybe it's time to bring it to the surface and deal?
I literally spent the year dealing with this. And while it was a struggle for a long time, it's taught me so much about what areas of my being that needed healing. And it's healed, and I look forward to meeting the people that will mirror the light I feel deep down, and that's what's it all about.
MMMMMmmmmmm, life.
Ray Lamontagne,
Katie
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