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Pre-Bucket List Bucket List

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So I've taken a few weeks off work to recover from anemia.  No wonder I've been so exhausted lately. That being said, it was hard to admit to myself I needed the time off.  I felt like I was failing at life, hahaha.  But, My Body Talks! So I need to do what is needed to feel better, and that's consuming more iron and resting. I've been spending my days tirelessly scoping out the internet and watching movies.  Today I was feeling more energetic so after shoveling out my car I sat down to answer a question that's been on my mind for weeks. Two Sundays ago, about, we were playing a warm-up game before an improv show at Theatre-Ste-Catherine called "5 Things."  Basically someone gives you a topic like 5 colors, and you name 5 colors.  Very simple, but we often get creative with our questions like "5 things you want to do before you die." I got a version of that question that threw me for a loop because it was really good but I needed some tim

Love Poem

Love has no boundaries. It isn't a jail cell Nor a prison sentence It isn't a call for help Nor a road to freedom It's a union Of two souls On separate paths Lucky enough to have found one another And explore the vastness of our world together There are no walls There are no secrets There are no questions Where love lives. It just is. When people get involved, The current begins. Instead of flowing with the vibe We push pull and shove it. We want, we need, we seek... But all the answers are there Drops of water to the ocean Swim, dive in, enter and allow- The wave to enter you.

Big Beautiful Life

I remember being around 11 years old at my friend's house out for a swim, when she told me to stick my feet together and she passed her hand from my ankles to my thighs, where it got stuck.  She stood up and told me that her grandmother says you have perfect legs if you can pass your hand all the way to the top. I remember doing cartwheels at 9 with a mushroom cut outdoors of a relative's house when a construction worker walked by and said, "allo p'tit gas" (hello little boy). I remember someone commenting on her own double chin and making me realize I had one too.  She told me if I should ever have plastic surgery, it should be on my nose. I also remember the time in the 90s when bellytops were in style and a group of boys laughing at me as I walked away from them, wearing black levis and a grey bellytop... they stood there and laughed with my best friend, who didn't defend me. I walked around for most of high school sucking my tummy in.  I remember m

The Gag Reflex

Okay, so if you don't feel the spark, you don't feel the spark right?  If there's no spark, it ain't gonna happen right? I went out with a really nice guy this weekend, had an enjoyable time, our conversation flowed... but I just couldn't get past the feeling that I wasn't feeling it.  Does the spark show up after a couple of dates?  No.  I mean what would motivate you to go out with someone again if you didn't feel the least bit intrigued? This is why I'm terrible at dating.  I really shouldn't bother because unless I feel some semblance of butterflies, even if it's an old dying one batting its final bats of wings... I'll still be curious.  But I think that's alright.  The spark is what makes you want to get together, to push toward something more some day. I still strongly believe that dating shouldn't be a contrived meet-up, even though it is.  It shouldn't feel that way anyhow.  I want to get the nervous stomach cramps b

Turn the Page

I realized that 7 months from today I will turn 31.  It's hard to believe 5 months have already flown by since my 30th birthday. And more than ever before, I realize it's time to turn a new page in my life. If you know me well, you know how often I self-analyze.  I mean this blog is a true testament to that.  Yes I'm really good at looking on the brighter side of things but what you don't know is that I struggle with this every day. When I started this blog two years ago, I had a profoundly different outlook on life.  I was positive all the time, I was eating well, I was outgoing and felt like I had zero stress finally.  But that was after making a drastic change in my health habits - eating raw foods - and discovering myself as a whole person.  It was a beautiful process, and though I do feel that person is still a big part of me, I've lost touch with her of late. I think shedding a skin is a natural occurrence, I've talked about lobsters before - how t