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The Birds and the Bees

It turns out I gave a couple family members cause for worry with my last blog post.  Perhaps they are of a certain generation but they raised a very valid point that maybe us 30 year olds don’t consider in our pursuits anymore because we’re adults… But safety should always be a concern when meeting someone on the internet.  Do you really know what kind of person this is just based on a profile pic and some words?  Please just meet and stay in a very public place.  Don’t go for walks along the pier.  :)   All things considered, I’d like to think I’m a lot less naïve than when I was 22 and coming into my own.  I always learn from my mistakes even though it may take a few years for me to realize it. Nonetheless, attraction has been on my mind all week, and I’m sure it has something to do with the nice weather we’ve been having.  I swear to God I've been smelling like a billion different colognes in the air.  We’re so primitive in the Spring! But that got me thinking, why are we att

Cyber Optic

OkCupid, Plenty of Fish, Lavalife, Veggiedate... hell, even eHarmony... Like a fad diet, I've tried them all. The first person I met online turned out to be my first love, believe it or not.  I wouldn't admit it to a lot of people at the time, but I met him through the QCHC website (Quebec Hardcore), back in the day.  His band had a page and I complimented them for a great show, then we started messaging each other... decided to go for a date and the rest is history.  This was before online dating was sort of taboo, so I guess it was cool. Since then, unfortunately, I haven't had much luck meeting people on the internet.  I've probably put myself in a couple of risky situations though, including a party filled with navy guys and a questionable walk along a remote part of the pier in Old Montreal: "One time I was on this date with a girl I met online, and I took her here, and I said to her, wouldn't it be funny if I threw you in the water?  No one would be

I am a Mountain

It's kind of funny, really.  I came home to my brand new, real, actual apartment, that I'll finally be living in, and it felt like an oven.  In fact, it also smelled like an oven.  I went into the kitchen to find the stove turned on to 350 degrees, and it felt like it had been for a while.  I immediately turned it off and questioned the spark maker tool on my windowsill, picturing myself and the entire apartment blowing up if I touched it.  A paranoid "are they trying to kill me?" thought crossed my mind.  They moved my stuff in this week.  Someone just forgot to turn off the oven after turning on the gas.  Apparently it's only dangerous if it's just the gas escaping, but I'm an anxious person and have an easy time picturing my death. Like on the plane back to Montreal.  We hit a lot of turbulence as we flew in to Calgary, and I literally thought this was it; I'm going to die on this plane and my journals will never be published the way I want them t

Just Waves

Do you ever have those moments of clarity where you find yourself with your eyes wide open, as though they'd been shut for a long time? Like you've suddenly woken up from a long fog; everything is calm, everything is clear. Life is good. This afternoon I opened my eyes on the ferry crossing over to Victoria. I saw the ocean waves, the mountains, the seagulls soaring alongside the giant vessel. It wasn't sunny, it was lightly raining, but there in front of me, was calm. Beauty. I blinked and realized I haven't felt this relaxed in months. Totally focused in the moment, enjoying my surroundings, without a billion things on my mind. Just waves. The ferry brought us to our destination, and we were greeted by the smiling faces of cousins, people I love but don't get to see often enough. This is going to be a good week. A break from the disruption of my unsettled living situation, a break from work, a break from that entire reality. I'm 4000 kilometres